When I Dream~

Ok.. Changing my original 1st line. Guys tell me that they have a special feeling when they know me and that they find me to be the girl in their life. Someone they wanna get to know better and develop a relationship with.. Maybe marry. Yes, it makes me feel good.. Makes me happy to know that there are people out there who truly think the world of me. But I can't help wondering.. What makes people think I'm special and that I'm the one? I have no idea.. I don't even know what I did to make guys like me. Is it based on looks? I'm not that pretty. Is it based on height which makes me more noticeable? There are many girls taller than me. I absolutely have no clue.. I feel that when guys are trying to woo a girl, they tend to neglect something.. Something called care and concern. After some time, care and concern no longer tend to exist. It's like, the guy used to call u 3 times a day.. And he stops calling for various reasons claiming to be busy. Then, it gets to a...

Been wanting to blog the whole day. Didn't really feel happy today. Not sure why. But I'm glad that Agnes, Chris mama, Rachel, Irene, Celine n Winston made me laugh a lot during lunch today. Am also happy that Agnes, Chris mama, Rachel, Joey, Bee n Felix were able to make me laugh during supper just now. I'm thankful for the company I had today who were all cheering me up without knowing that I was down. Joey cracked so many funny jokes that I laughed til my tummy ached. Haha. I enjoyed myself tonite. Dunno why I'm feeling down today. Maybe coz I haven't had enough sleep for weeks and I'm really really tired. Gonna head straight to bed after this post. I need my 12 hour sleep desperately. Somehow, I've had this nagging feeling the whole day. Feel that I'm actually not good enough. Not good enough to love anybody or for anyone to love me, not good enough at work, not good enough to be a person in general. This feeling sucks and it really brings me down. W...

Went drinking on Monday nite to celebrate Dave's bday. As always, I had lots of fun n booze. Haha. Getting closer n closer to the regular gang of Rich, Anto, Ben, etc. Jasmine just called me to go down tonite but am too tired to drink. Had a slight hangover on Tues morning while I was in office probably due to the lack of sleep as well as I went to bed at 2+ and woke up at 6am to reach office by 7.30am. Thank god for the lime juice which solved the problem. :p Thanks to Felix too for helping me to buy and for sending me to office so early in the morning! Attended Anson & Xhann's wedding last nite. Was really beautiful and romantic. They are really a couple made for each other. So perfect and matching. Sometimes, attending weddings make me think too much. The best part was, everybody started asking when would my turn be. Sighz.. It's still a long long way to go... Marriage.. Something that I yearn but no longer dare to ask for or think about. But their wedding was really...

Haven't been blogging as much as I want to.. Sorry to be missing in action. Been happy and busy lately. Maybe I know the reason for being happy. Maybe coz people have been treating me as a lady lately. Have had guys opening car doors for me before I get in the car and treating me so much like a princess that sometimes I'm afraid that I will be over pampered. Haha. But I like the feeling.. Really do. Went to Salsa Club with Rachel, Cheryl, Felix and Chris Yeo on Fri as arranged with Ricky, our salsa instructor. Lynn and ah Bee joined us later. Wanted to take a look at the place and the professional people dance. However, was dragged to the dance floor by Ricky twice. He even asked his other instructor friend to dance with us gals. He taught us some hand movements whioch was interesting. Another guy approached me to dance with him when it was almost time for us to leave. I kept telling him that I was only a beginner but he still insisted that I tried. Stepped and bumped into him ...

Shorthanded in office these days.. Been working til late. Have been wanting to blog but haven't had the time. Can't remember what I wanted to blog about already. Sighz... Getting old.. Keep forgetting things nowadays. Have been short changed in office. A bit pissed off but promised many people that I will stay in this department for 1 year and I will stick on with it. Can only say coz there are still many things for me to learn. Given my stubborn character, I think I'll be able to persevere on and stick it through. Finally booked the tickets for my Egypt trip. Can only keep my fingers crossed that we have enough people who signed up for the package so that I can go on my trip. Can't wait for a well deserved break from work! Haha. I miss travelling, and I've never been out of Asia before besides to Australia. Hehe. Yay!! Quite a lot of people have been saying that I seem more cheerful these days. I feel that way too! Much happier and lighter. Why not? Haha. Isn't...

Dragonfly on Tues nite! COOL! Haha. Thanks to Felix for driving me down to open my free bottle of Hennessy before it gets forfeited. We were there for a while and we were so relaxed that we didn't wanna leave. :p Anyway, I enjoyed mself there tonite so once again, thanx Felix! Had dinner with Bee and Felix after that. Was enjoyable. Chatted and discussed about 21 Sept where we will have a mini celebration for Bee's bday. :) Today was not a very exciting or happy day for me but it was made much better after the trip to Dragonfly and some sms-es from young boy Tony. Haha. Young boys these days.. Made my day though by cheering me up. I feel old. :D So overall, today was not that bad after all. Plus an sms from Jean dearest. Thanx babe!

I'm not stupid, neither am I a fool. Don't lie to me and tell me things when I know they aren't true. Just tell me the truth. I'm not dumb. I can sense it when things are not right. Do I look stupid to u? I may not have graduated from a local Uni, may not have 2nd upper class honours, but that does not make me dumb nor stupid nor any less clever than others. Whatever. Lie to me. Treat me as an idiot. Maybe I am. A klutz, a donkey, an airhead, a numskull, a blockhead, an ass, a dodo, a dimwit, a goon, a dumbbell, a dumdum. Whatever. So be it. The only 2 things that managed to brighten up my day was the fact that the minute I reached office, I saw a note from my beloved princess, Bernicia. Haven't seen my little sis for ages and it was really great to see her note 1st thing in the morning. Was sweet and nice. Miss my little dearest. 2nd thing was that Meng actually read my previous post and sms-ed me from Dubai. Thanx bro! Wish I can go Dubai.. But sighz.. How does De...

People who know me well enough will know that I am someone who does not like to be alone, especially when it comes to going out alone or eating along. But somehow, I have been doing what I dread most. Haha. Went to my friend's (Dave) pub this afternoon coz I was bored and he was waiting for the aircon service repair guy to resolve the leaking of water from the aircon. Had lunch there and went for movie with my cousins shortly after. Had pre-bday celebration for my sis after the movie and it was home for everybody. Being bored n not wanting to be home so early on a Saturday nite, I went to Dave's pub again. But as it was night time and he had customers, I was alone the whole time. Of coz I know the staff working there and some of them chatted with me at my table but I was alone most of the time. And guess what, I was there for 3 hours. Haha. Unbelievable ya? Have been finding solace and enjoying the solitude, peace and quiet. My 'mummy' has also said that I have been so ...