When I Dream~

Was talking to my mummy in office today and we discussed about love. We came to a conclusion. I am someone who likes another person easily esp when the guy shows me some care and attention. Reason being, I enjoy being in love and the feeling of being loved, being cared for, being protected by the person I like and who likes me. I like guys who are romantic but have never met any guy who is romantic or has given me a truly romantic feeling. Mummy said that this is life.. I agree, totally. But who am I to talk about love? I suck at it.. Been having the urge to just disappear from everyone and everything for a couple of days. Been wanting to take a break for myself, by myself. The urge is getting stronger everyday and on the bus home just now, I could see myself doing that at the place I wanna go. Don't think anyone will know where that is and will be able to find me. Think I really need to rest more. Finally been able to finish work early or on time ever since I stopped helping Shang...

I have officially retired from Control Dept. Dunno if I should be happy or sad. I guess in a way, I can finally concentrate on my options. But somehow, it's like letting go of my baby.. Something which I have put in a lot of effort to make it work and to do it well. But I'm glad to move on.. Just like I am moving on with my life. Been working late these days coz of the major issue that they have been facing with. Managed to resolve it today.. At long last. I can go back on time again and start enjoying my nights instead of staying on in office. I don't mind the hard work in office, but if it goes unappreciated, it's saddening and disheartening. Anyway, it's over so.. Time to go on. Have been skipping dinner the past few nights. Not much of an appetite but while I was bathing earlier, I smelt glutinous rice and it made me crave for it. Been sometime since I last ate that.. Craving!!! Tired and sleepy.. Shall go sleep after my show. Nitez folks!

Sitting at Starbucks today waiting for my dad who was undergoing endoscopy scan, reading the options textbook that I brought along, listening to the music in the background brought back memories of me when I was 15-16 years old. So much so that I penned it all on a Starbucks serviette before I came home to key in this entry now. At the age of 15-16, I used to study at Starbucks Liat Towers every week and even after work sometimes. I would leave my house early in the morning with all my books and notes, head to Starbucks, get my favourite sofa seat at the corner of the cafe, plug in my earphones and be lost in my own world til almost noon when working adults would come in for a cuppa to chat and relax during lunch. That was when I would take a break. During that time, I got to know Belle and Vincent. Belle's a very pretty girl! Both of them were working there at that time and they were super friendly. Part of the reason why I always went there. I still remember how my compositions r...

Jus came home not long ago from drinks. Was at home the whole day and my friend wanted to go for drinks so I went out. Jus did my laundry and I'm sooo tired.. Gonna sleep soon. Went for movie with Bee, Lynn, Joey, Ting and Felix on Friday night. Watched "Secret" by Jay Chou and it was kinda nice. Liked the music and all along I've liked Jay Chou so I totally enjoyed it. Went for some catch up session with Bee, Lynn and Felix at Spize Supper Club near Bee's place. Been some time since we sat down together and chatted. Short of 1 person though.. But he's pretty much out of our group now that he's attached. Slept til 3pm on Saturday. Shiokz! Woke up and went to Brewerkz. Friend came back from Shanghai and we were drinking and playing pool there. Had a good time but realised that I can't drink beer or wine these days. At least I can't drink much of those now coz they give me headaches. I can take hard liquor though such as Martell, Chivas, Jack Daniels...

Very very disgusted with an OCBC banker today. Fucking drunkard. Totally spoilt my very fantastic day at Dragonfly today. 2 weeks ago when I was there, he was there as well and he's such an attention seeking bastard who can't hold his liquer well. Always drunk and getting into trouble but yet know 1 of the managers there and hence, never got into trouble before. Fucker! He's such a loser. Was drunk and kept bumping into us. Was afraid that Rachel be bumped too and hence, gave him a nudge and pulled Rachel to the other side of me. Bugger got pissed coz he was already drunk and made a big fuss out of it, creating a scene and huge attention for himself. Total jackass! But when he saw Joey, he was scared coz asshole knows Joey. Fucking gay drunkard. Not that I discriminate against gays or lesbians, but I find him a total loser who will never make it big in life. Bloody shortie too! Felt like telling him, "I bumped into u coz I can't fucking see u". Tried making pe...

Went for training on Wed to Fri but took half day medical leave on Thurs due to a bout of gastric flu. Vomitted on Wed nite and it was really bad coz I woke up at 1.40am to puke. Was so tired during the training on Thurs and I fell asleep during discussion time! Was really not good in every sense so I requested for early departure. Trainer was understanding and after seeing the doctor, I'm ok now. :) Had dept dinner at Oosh on Fri nite. Was ok but the table was too long and we had difficulty communicating and talking to one another. In the end, we ended up talking in small groups. Haha. Not exactly right for a dept dinner. Went to Dragonfly again. Didn't stay long after the dinner coz I couldn't drink whilst the rest were all drinking away. Zoey and her friends were also there so I met up with them. Saw Sharon from the audit company I used to work at and Zuwei as well. :p Didn't stay long though coz the medication was making me sleepy. Will stay long on this coming Wed ...