When I Dream~

Received a sms from Sonia today informing me of a Xmas gathering on 17th Dec. It's the exact same day that I'll be checking into Fullerton for my 1 night stay with Tom. Was a bit disappointed at not being able to join the gathering as it has been a while sinceall of us caught up with one another and I'll love to meet everyone. Tom didn't seem to be in a good mood today so I didn't dare to say much except to tell him that I had just been informed of the gathering. Knocked off work late due to some last minute stuff to handle. Everything that's happening this week is kinda in a rush as my boss is going on leave and things that need her approval has to be settled by this week. I've got lots of stuff that needs her approval so I've been rushing around like a mad woman. Screw ups in systems have also become an issue and I keep being harrassed by everyone though it's not my fault. Sighz.. Anyway, Tom had to wait for me to knock off work in the end. When I ...

I'm suffering from insomnia! Haven't slept properly for the whole of last week. It sucks. No matter how tired I am physically and mentally, I just can't seem to fall asleep. Wonder what's the cause of this. Everybody keeps asking me if it's work stress but I doubt so. Haven't had much stress from work and I've not been working late recently. It's causing me to heaty and pimples are breaking out. Sighz.. I'm blogging this in the office. It's still considered lunch time anyway. I went for lunch at 12.50pm and came back at 1.20pm. Amazing record time. I finished my plate of chicken rice in 8 minutes. The last time I ate this fast was when I was still in JC, gobbling down my food to prepare for Orientation. Haha. So long ago.. Edmund, my big bro in office, just offered me chocolate cookie and dessert. He's very sweet. A very very nice guy. Glad to have him as my bro coz he always looks out for me and takes care of me. :) Work today is ok. Slightl...

I've decided to start counting down the number of days to my stay at the Fullerton with Tom. We're both very excited about it and we wanna take lots of pics that day with the new digicam. Hope everything turns out well~! It's another 20 more days. Can't wait! My damn laptop is giving me problems again. I can't check my emails nor use my MSN. The dumb anti-virus can't load which is causing me all these problems. I've tried uninstalling it but it refuses to be removed from my laptop. It's simply pissing me off. Need help with my dumb laptop but I've got a good mind to sell this away and get another one or maybe a desktop instead. This laptop has simply given me too much trouble. Need to seriously consider what I have to do. Ken from CPB asked me one question today. He asked I was at Tom's place today. I was shocked. It really came as a surprise to me coz I've never told him who my bf is. I didn't admit neither did I deny. I merely asked him...

Haven't had much time to blog daily again. Been busy at work due to year-end and the fact that my boss will be going on her 3 weeks' leave soon. I've got to settle everything that needs her approval before she enjoys herself. We had a company event last night for most of the CIB people. I finally got to see some of the people that I've been liasing with but never had the chance to see how they look. I must say that most of them look very different from what I imagine through the sounds of their voices over the phone. For all of us at TJ, we were supposed to dress up as J-pop or K-pop. Not many of them dressed up though. I wore a tank top, mini denim skirt, high boots and a cap (Will post the pic up later as I haven't gotten the pics yet). Had to rush down to city plaza to buy the cap and boots. Must thank D for rushing me there and back to office to buy. Without her help, I wouldn't have won the Best Dressed Award for the genre of J-pop/K-pop. I liked what I wor...

It's been a long time since I last caught up with Anne. The last time was the dinner that we had our gathering at IndoChine. Decided to email her to catch up. Talked about friends from SIM, people we've caught up with recently and people from office, and the topic of marriage. More on marriage later but I realised that people in my office are truly genuine and care for others even though they have joined other companies. Many of them still ask me about Anne and how she is doing which goes to show how fantastic these people are. Back to the topic, we talked about marriage. Why? Coz many of our common friends are either engaged, have gotten flats with their partners or are intending to get married by next year. I remember there was this period when we were still studying where almost everybody we knew were breaking up. Some of us even called it the 'breaking up' season. If my memory doesn't fail me, I think it was sometime in Oct or Nov but I can't remember the ex...

I've decided to change my attitude towards my dad. I'll be more patient, more tolerant and more understanding towards him. I'll do my very best to be a better daughter though I don't feel that I've been all that bad. I'll keep reminding myself to be better to him. I'll try my hardest. :)

Everytime after I treat my dad somewhat badly or my attitude to him is bad, I ask myself this question, "Have I been too much?" I always feel terrible inside when I talk to him rudely or when I know I had been mean to him. Somehow, it always ends up that way. I can't seem to talk to him properly without our conversation ending on a bad note. Most times, I get irritated by him easily. I admit that I'm not a person with much patience and I hate it when he keeps repeating what he says or that he's told someone else to convey the message to me and yet calls me to repeat the same message again. Yes, I hate that lots. My patience level with him is as good as zilch. Most times, the things he says really gets on my nerves. I always hear complains about the tenant, about money. Yes, money.. I hate it when he opens his mouth and tells me that he doesn't have money and that sort of crap. You earn your own keep and if you refuse to save and just keep spending, there's...

I'm seriously thinking of getting a digicam to take pics with. It's something that I've wanted to get for some time now. Guess it's time I put it into action. Will start looking around for something good. Anyway, uploaded the pics that Stef put on the web for our Thailand trip. I finally got down to saving them into my laptop. Enjoy the pics and thanx to Stef and Anne for taking so many pics! Friday was tiring as I worked til 10.30pm to finish all my work. All coz of the fact that I'm on leave on Monday. Everybody wants their stuff before I go on my 1 day leave and I had to rush everything for them. Sighz.. By the time I finished work, I didn't know if i should eat or sleep as I was both tired and hungry. Took a cab to Tom's place and munched on potato chips before heading straight for the bed. Slept soundly til 3am before he sent me home. Headed to Suntec on Saturday for a walk with Tom as we were clueless on what to do for the day. Walked at Carrefour but ...

Wanted to blog last night but was too tired. Internet in the office is up again! YAY!!!! Blogging in the office now actually. Got to make this a short entry. The place I'm sitting at now is not tht secure for doing this. Hehe. Everything between Tom and I are ok on Wednesday night itself. He's really wonderful to even try to cheer me up again. He's a great guy, I know. Will do my very best to not make him upset or angry with me again. Dearest D, everything's fine. Don't think so much k? U're still a great friend to me and I love you for that. Thanks for all the good and fun times together. :) K.. Gotta work. Don't want my boss to see me blogging during office hour. :p

Thunderstorm's brewing outside while I'm sitting here, alone in Tom's house, blogging away with my can of Lime Coke that I jus bought, enjoying the aircon and mp3s, deciding if I should my KitKat Chunky with Caramel. The kind of life that I like. Thought of going to a cafe to read my book with an ice blended coffee, watching the day pass by but the thunderstorm prevented all that from happening. No worries, I've still got 3 more days of leave to clear. Hopefully I get to do that on 1 of the days that I'm on leave. Would really love to do that. Something that I've always wanted. Anyway, I came to my dear's place early in the morning (Woke up the same time that I'll wake up to go work!). It's insane, yes I know. Why would anyone want to wake up that early in the morning just to go to their bf's house when nobody's there either. Well, I don't want to stay at home and be bombarded with questions from my dad about my taking leave and he'll...

Had a long discussion with Tom last night after dinner on what we should do for our 3 days of leave from 16 to 19 Dec. We had been thinking of going for a weekend getaway for some time coz I really wanna go some place alone, just the 2 of us. Checked out the website for weather of Phuket in Dec and found that it's sunny with not much rain. Good! Proceeded to check hotels and resorts that looked nice and were affordable. Took us an hour finding what we wanted. Found it at long last! Proceeded to check out airlines and while registering for the flight, the website prompted us for expiry dates of our passport. As I didn't have my passport with me at the moment, Tom decided to send me home first and we could continue with the registration over the phone. On the way home, I told him about the deal that I saw on the website of One Fullerton. There's a weekend promotion going on and it looks real nice. I was very tempted by it and felt that it was worth a try. We decided to think ...

It's been a boring Sunday so far. I'm at home, with nothing to do. Been thinking about getting my driver license. Maybe it's time I put the thoughts into action. I yearn for the day when I've got a car of my own, driving alone in the night to wherever I want when I'm unhappy. Feeling the cold breeze, listening to a nice CD and jus driving aimlessly. I love nothing more than freedom, the freedom to do whatever I want, whenever I want. When will that come true? Read Stef's blog a while ago. Jean told me about it. Not sure if Stef is ok with me reading it and adding the link to my blog. Will ask her about it when I see her online. Stef, if it's not ok, jus let me know and I'll remove the link k? Realised that everybody puts on a front. Everyone of us has a facade coz there are things that we do not want people to know. When we were drinking at Club Momo once, Ken said this to me, "You don't understand what we (he and some others) are going through ...

Finally, our office move is completed. It's been postponed ever since I joined the company in May and I heard that this topic has been up since March. Haha. Shows the efficiency of our company in handling such things. Anyway, I'm real glad that it's over and done with coz it was really tiring for me. In my whole dept, everyone had to pack and most of them had only half a box to 1 box of things. For me, it was 4 big boxes! The worst part, I had to pack them all by myself and unpack, all in a day's work! Suffering from muscle ache now. Sighz.. The office space was designed by Yating and I, and we won the award for it. Somehow, it wasn't what we expected due to the limited office space that we have - All thanks to cutting cost. Everybody was complaining but space restriction and that we can't see each other even after standing up. It's not our fault! There are so many needs that we have to cut down on everybody's wants while designing the plan. The whole ar...

Last night was the very first time that I actually cooked dinner for anyone. Have been in the mood to cook for Tom this week. I must admit I'm not someone who can cook or likes to cook. I'm more the kind of person who prefers to bake cakes or make desserts. That's why it was pretty amusing to myself that I actually had the urge to cook. For the whole time that I was with Tom (almost 2 years now), it has always been him or his mum cooking dinner for me. The only thing that I've cooked for him is only instant noodles, and everyone knows how to do that. I've watched him cook for me a few times, especially recently, hence I decided to try. Told him that he was not supposed to help at all except when I ask him questions. Hehe. Once we reached his place, I proceeded to the kitchen to start cooking. The dinner was: Spaghetti and soup. Yes, it's the simplest Western food to cook and the only thing that I know how to cook after watching him so many times. I allowed him t...

realised that i'm blogging lesser and lesser nowadays. my life has been so monotonous that i feel so dead. sighz.. everyday, it's just about work and going home. what is this?? this will be an update on my life since my thailand trip. :) met up with stef, eevon, jean, dilun, irvin and anne on 29 Oct. it's the same day that i had my hair rebonded. hehe. sat there for 4 hours jus to get it straight. i've got terribly stubborn hair, probably the same as my character. found out about my stubbornness when i was still in primary school. not something that i'm proud of, but definitely something that's very hard for me to change. anyway, when all of them saw me, they were shocked coz my hair was really straight and flat. everybody started saying it was too straight and i rebutted by saying that anne and stef were complaining about my hair being so wavy n stuff like that in thailand. haha. we had dinner at indochines, a restaurant called madame butterfly. the place was r...