Moving On From An Emotional Day..
Yesterday (16/09) was another emotional day for me. It was the day we started dating officially 6 years ago.. in 2008. Yesterday would have been and could have been our 6 wonderful years together, had it not been coz.. of reasons that only I know of and can only keep it within in. Reasons where I know til now I'll never forget and never get over. For I still have to face the asshole who caused all my misery for the rest of my life as he's part of the family. What can I say other than FML. 1 asshole who still shows no remorse or guilt and still refuses to come clean about what has happened.
Anyway, I have taken leave 2 years in a row now on this date.. Staying at home, waiting to see if anything will happen. But obviously, I'm the one who thinks too much and of coz, causing myself 1 helluva disappointment. What were you expecting, you stupid woman? You think he will still give a damn about this date in your life now? WAKE UP YOUR STUPID IDEA! It's no longer of any significance to anyone, and neither should it be of any significance or importance to you! Time to let go and get a grip on your life. MOVE ON! Stop dwelling on something that will never happen again!
And so.. After an emotional day and night, I woke up this morning (17/09). Suddenly Jim kept wanting to buy brunch for me and send me back to Cedar where I agreed to meet Mr Tay. So along came Jim with a plate of sashimi for me as brunch and off we went to Cedar. Soooo happy to be back in my alma mater!! The security guard was hostile though!! Kept telling me off for going to Cedar at 1pm and telling me, "The students are in class. What are you here for?? Why at this time? Go and sit there and don't move around!! Don't disrupt lessons!" So fiercely and so angrily.. Super scary!! :(
Mr Tay brought me for a walkabout in school and it was lovely seeing all these new wings and buildings and rooms. Sooo lovely!! Had a nice catchup with Mr Tay about a few other teachers and what happened to me over a cup of fruit juice. Nice to see the students too - still as polite and courteous! The 2 drinks stall aunties at the canteen were so happy and excited to see me as well! :) And the happiest was when another teacher said I don't look my age at all! HAHAHAHA!!
After which, it so happened that Meng called me asking where I was and that he could meet me for coffee. Another free ride!!! LOL! He picked me up from Cedar and off we went to Jln Riang Wimbly Lu. I had a cappuccino and we shared a lemon meringue pie and molten lava cake. Caught up a bit and I had a good time listening to Nicky's singing in the car which Meng recorded on his hp. :D Put such a big smile on my face the whole time til my cheek muscles hurt!
Meng then sent me to Sid's place where I spent a good hour or 2 with my dearest, cutest, loveliest love of my life aka Sarah!!! :) Miss that cutie pie as much as ever and she still looks as gorgeous as ever. Kept kissing and kissing her! Hehehe. Then we played til both of us were tired out and I was soaked in perspiration!!
Left and met up with Stevo kiddo for dinner. Wanted to go for fish soup at Tan Quee Lan Street but the queue was crazy so we went to MOF. Ordered sooo much!!! 1 big Sukiyaki Nabe with udon hotpot to share and we topped up money to get a jellyfish side dish. Ordered a rainbow coloured sushi roll of 9-10 pieces and agedashi tofu. We cleared and finished everything and went for dessert!! Had a mango pomelo, pear and longan red date dessert and a plate of 4 peanut dumplings to share. Hahahaha. We are such gluttons and we finished everything again!! Gosh!!
But had a good chat with Stevo, as we always do when we meet up or catch up. I'm glad for all these activities today to keep my mind off things and to get a grip on my life again, to move on. The only thing that is worrying me now is the rash on my face and neck again - a reminder of the signs before I went into the coma. That's the only thing that is of my concern now. All other things.. Will be out of my mind.
Anyway, I have taken leave 2 years in a row now on this date.. Staying at home, waiting to see if anything will happen. But obviously, I'm the one who thinks too much and of coz, causing myself 1 helluva disappointment. What were you expecting, you stupid woman? You think he will still give a damn about this date in your life now? WAKE UP YOUR STUPID IDEA! It's no longer of any significance to anyone, and neither should it be of any significance or importance to you! Time to let go and get a grip on your life. MOVE ON! Stop dwelling on something that will never happen again!
And so.. After an emotional day and night, I woke up this morning (17/09). Suddenly Jim kept wanting to buy brunch for me and send me back to Cedar where I agreed to meet Mr Tay. So along came Jim with a plate of sashimi for me as brunch and off we went to Cedar. Soooo happy to be back in my alma mater!! The security guard was hostile though!! Kept telling me off for going to Cedar at 1pm and telling me, "The students are in class. What are you here for?? Why at this time? Go and sit there and don't move around!! Don't disrupt lessons!" So fiercely and so angrily.. Super scary!! :(
Mr Tay brought me for a walkabout in school and it was lovely seeing all these new wings and buildings and rooms. Sooo lovely!! Had a nice catchup with Mr Tay about a few other teachers and what happened to me over a cup of fruit juice. Nice to see the students too - still as polite and courteous! The 2 drinks stall aunties at the canteen were so happy and excited to see me as well! :) And the happiest was when another teacher said I don't look my age at all! HAHAHAHA!!
After which, it so happened that Meng called me asking where I was and that he could meet me for coffee. Another free ride!!! LOL! He picked me up from Cedar and off we went to Jln Riang Wimbly Lu. I had a cappuccino and we shared a lemon meringue pie and molten lava cake. Caught up a bit and I had a good time listening to Nicky's singing in the car which Meng recorded on his hp. :D Put such a big smile on my face the whole time til my cheek muscles hurt!
Meng then sent me to Sid's place where I spent a good hour or 2 with my dearest, cutest, loveliest love of my life aka Sarah!!! :) Miss that cutie pie as much as ever and she still looks as gorgeous as ever. Kept kissing and kissing her! Hehehe. Then we played til both of us were tired out and I was soaked in perspiration!!
Left and met up with Stevo kiddo for dinner. Wanted to go for fish soup at Tan Quee Lan Street but the queue was crazy so we went to MOF. Ordered sooo much!!! 1 big Sukiyaki Nabe with udon hotpot to share and we topped up money to get a jellyfish side dish. Ordered a rainbow coloured sushi roll of 9-10 pieces and agedashi tofu. We cleared and finished everything and went for dessert!! Had a mango pomelo, pear and longan red date dessert and a plate of 4 peanut dumplings to share. Hahahaha. We are such gluttons and we finished everything again!! Gosh!!
But had a good chat with Stevo, as we always do when we meet up or catch up. I'm glad for all these activities today to keep my mind off things and to get a grip on my life again, to move on. The only thing that is worrying me now is the rash on my face and neck again - a reminder of the signs before I went into the coma. That's the only thing that is of my concern now. All other things.. Will be out of my mind.
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