Thanks Gaurav!

When did things start changing so much that I no longer know anything? Or is it me who has changed? I really wonder.. Was I too forgiving, too tolerant in the past and now, after all that ordeal, I've finally learnt and want to be better to myself? Why is it so hard to fathom? I'm really at the crossroads of my life in terms of everything - from personal life, family, work, etc. What do I and should I really do now?Sigh... 

Anyway, Gaurav is leaving our team.. He's moving to NY and I'm sad. For a period of time, I didn't like him much. But.. He was the one who taught me stuff, who brought me to broker dinners and "showed me the world". Between him and me, we have always been brutally honest with each other. He can be bad tempered and vulgar and rude but he can also be open and generous. I've always enjoyed talking to him and having him around during broker dinners are always more fun than when he's not there. 

We had so much at the last Xmas party that I'll never forget that night.. The game we played where I dragged him along to play the game with me and we had to strip his shirt off and pics were snapped and passed around office even in London and NY office. Til this day, he still keeps talking about it and "blaming" me for making him play the game but I know all of us had fun. :)

He's the last guy on the team that I'm close to. I'm not sure what's gonna happen after he leaves us next week. Sigh.. Told him some stuff while in the cab on the way home last night. And he told me something which really touched me and made me feel that I'm gonna miss him a lot.. He said, "Maggie, you are smart, pretty and has a good heart. You can definitely work things out somehow.." The confidence he has in me is something I never knew.. And I'm touched. Seriously touched.. 

And he told me that when I was in a coma and they found out about it, they were "shitting in their pants" in office. Haha. Yes, I'm sure they were coz I've been babysitting them too much all this time. Dear Gaurav, I'm soooo gonna miss you and your nonsense when you are in NY. Thank you for teaching me so much at work, for bringing me to broker dinners, for treating me like a little sister all this time. I will always remember you and the fun we've always had as a team - You, Jacko, Charles and me. Take care! We will meet again for sure!

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