When I Dream~

A very busy day.. I enjoyed my day. But feeling kinda sad at the same time. Is it coz the company's going down or was it coz of what someone told me today? Or maybe it's coz of what was said at our unit meeting? A question was thrown to us to answer. The qn - Will you rather be re-deployed, cut in staff or have shorter working days in a week but with a paycut? So, which will you choose? Which choice would anyone choose? Yes, it just means that anyone of us will have a chance to be let go. I'm not worried. I choose not to be worried. I don't wanna scare myself unduly and be sad about it. That's not in me. What was it that someone told me? I can't say and I shan't say. It's not a very happy thing though. But as always, friendships are fragile. Some even come at a price. Love doesn't come easy either.. Neither is it easy to forget. Humans.. Full of irony and contradiction.. Ended work at 7.45pm. Train with Charlie. Marina Square to meet Eeyore for Slumd...

A very busy day, without the disturbance of Ailmer. Thank goodness for that! A nice day :) Rushed thro the morning stuff to make it in time for lawyer's appointment regarding Dad's stuff. Yes, it's almost been a year. This Sunday marks the day when Daddy left me a year ago. I am still settling the outstanding stuff til now. So many documents to sign. And these days, when I talk about Dad, I tend to get a tad emotional. :_( Starting to miss Mummy and Daddy again.. Hope I've done them proud all these years... Lunched with sis, Felix & Bee @ Raffles Place area. Been some time since Bee, Felix & I last sat down to have a meal. Ohh!!! It wasn't that long ago.. We met on 31 Jan... OH!!! That's long!! Shucks! We normally eat every week or every alt week. The gap for us to meet is getting further and further. Hmmz... MRT with Charlie after work. Waited for Eeyore to end work. Train to AMK to meet BS and Jean. Waited for them to finish their discussion at CitiGol...

Goals discussion at work today was alright. What I took away from it and from all other discussions before - Show no emotions at work at all, talk as little as possible when at work. That's what I've gotta learn to do from now on. But seriously, there's nothing much for me to talk about in office anymore. So, showing no emotions and not talking much ain't that hard after all. Made a settlement error at work again today. The same mistake.. Sighz... This time round, there's no "saving" of the error. Incurred a cost of USD20 charged to my department's cost centre. Sighz.. To think that 1 of my goals was to have minimal settlement errors and to have zero profit and loss. :_( Disappointed... Came home, ate my whole tub of Haagen Dazs Melon ice cream. Watched tv, blog, de-stress. I'm gonna sleep early tonite. I wanna wake up at 3am to watch Champions League - Real Madrid vs Liverpool. Luckily I have SCV now and I can watch on my tv instead of the laggy v...

Lunch with Jessica today. Heard some unsettling news. Sighz.. Basically, the company is seriously doing bad & our dept may also be affected. That's how bad it is now.. Keeping my fingers crossed.. Very tightly. Dinner with XZ @ Paulaners. While waiting for him at Starbucks of Raffles City, a foreigner kept staring at me and changing tables to sit closer and closer to me. Gave me a shock!! He even stood right in front of me!! Luckily XZ arrived jus in time to 'rescue' me out of Starbucks and on for dinner. Goal discussion tomorrow at work. Waste of my time. I can foresee the kind of stupid questions that they are going to ask me tomorrow based on the insight of my colleagues. I'm not gonna talk much or say much nor answer too many of the questions. It's just gonna be short, curt answers and to the point. No point saying anymore. I'm totally and utterly disappointed and disgusted with this department. Yet, I have no choice but to stay on til the market gets be...

Woke up with swollen eyes. Not sure why, but I'm sure I didn't cry. And that rhymes! Haha. Spent my lunch time shopping with Carissa mummy & Irene at Verge. Original damage was $560.. Thank God for 50% discount! I paid only $280 for 9 stuff - 4 pants, 2 skirts, 1 top & 2 dresses. Woohoo!!! But there's a major problem now.. My wardrobe is completely out of space to put in any new items!! Oh no!! Headache! Means I have to pack my wardrobe and throw away some of my clothes. Sobz!!! I think I need a much much bigger wardrobe! :((( Home for dinner with Cher & Eeyore. Nice!!! I can't think.. My eyes can't open.. Why are they swollen??? ARGH!!

Friday (20 Feb 2009) Mimolette - A place for yuppies. A place to be seen for people who wanna rub shoulders with models, artistes, rich young kids. Saw Fiona Xie there - Eeyore's HOT chick. Yupz, he loves her. I was pretty cool with him the whole day after what happened on Thurs but he was keen to make up with me, so.. Yeah.. We're ok again. Even let him oogle all he wanted at Fiona. Had a very expensive dinner of beef carpaccio, roasted tenderloin & angel food cake with red wine. None of us could decide what to do after dinner so we headed home. Coincidence was that I bumped into Sidney at Tampines and had company on the MRT ride to City Hall. :) It was a good dinner, nevertheless, with Sid, Stef, Jean, Anne & Eeyore. Saturday (21 Feb 2009) Woke up to have lunch bought for me together with a much needed packet of coffee. :) Watched the last few episodes of my HK drama, showered and we headed out to Kef's salon for Eeyore to have his hair cut. Freya came along and w...

This song is exactly how I feel.. My life.. Be it in terms of work, relationships, etc etc.. Seriously, I'm feeling tired.. Jaded.. I don't think I can deal with this.. To cry in the office, to make even colleagues I'm not that close to to be worried about me.. How long and how much can I take? I wonder... Maybe like the bruise on my nose (the toilet seat cover fell and hit my nose while I was puking in HK) & the swollen bruise on my thigh (from losing my balance and hitting against Ann's car this morning), I am bruised.. My heart is bruised.. My best friend = Bruises & Pain Linkin Park - In The End It starts with One thing, I don't know why It doesn't even matter how hard you try Keep that in mind, I designed this rhyme To explain in due time All I know Time is a valuable thing Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings Watch it count down to the end of the day The clock ticks life away It's so unreal Didn't look out below Watch the time go right ou...